day one...

Well, here I go. I seem to be embarking on an entirely new conquest, commonly referred to as being a blogger. I've never done anything quite like this before, but I recently acquired a desk job, which leaves me plenty of time to spend in new electronic endeavors.

I have my views and opinions. Many times I keep them to myself. In fact, I usually only expound if pressed. I think that my plan is to have someplace to spew that which can no longer remain pent up within me.

There are two problems with this that I can already forsee.
--1) Hesitance. In all honesty, what can I say that has not already been said in a much more concise, clear, and intelligent manner? Who am I to think that my views and concerns will have any impact on anybody?

--2) Shame. I don't deal well with feelings of vulnerability. If I open my figurative mouth, real feelings and thoughts are bound to spill forth. I can try to maintain an emotional distance between me and what I write, but I know that I will fail. I am bound to say things that will be criticized by others, which I will take as personal criticism. Maybe this will be good for me. Also, I will most certainly write entries which will, at some later point in time, prove to be somewhat embarassing for me. Maybe my views will change. Maybe I need to get a grip.

I would be wise to learn to be comfortable within the anonymity provided by cyber-space, as many have done. For a semi-introvert like myself this should be where I feel most comfortable. Most secure. I do not yet. Time will tell.